I was amused. I ganked this from Maratonista...I think I may have done this one or something like it a long time ago but still.
I was amused. I ganked this from Maratonista...I think I may have done this one or something like it a long time ago but still.
When I look in the mirror
The first thing I see
Is my eyes
The windows to my soul
Hidden behind my glasses
My armor from the world
Then I see hair that seems slightly possessed
And oily skin with pimples that never completely go away
Beyond that is shoulders that are entirely too broad
A fairly unremarkable pair of breasts
And a stomach that I’d really rather not discuss if its all the same to you
Farther down still are my hips
At least I think they’re there somewhere
I’ve been told I’m supposed to be an hourglass
But just now all I can see is a rather lumpy rectangle
Then come my equally fat thighs
Scarred up knees
My calves aren’t too bad I suppose
And my feet…well they’re feet so I can forgive them their imperfections
They do after all have to carry the rest of me around every day
My hands are too big
My fingers though long look a bit stubby
My fingernails look slightly chewed on
And my polish is chipped again
But beyond what I look like
There is another person
She is beautiful not because of her eyes or her skin or her build
She is smart
Occasionally more than a little strange
But most of all she is happy
I’m happy because I see myself as I am
I accept my flaws
They are after all what makes me…well…me
Which is not to say that I wouldn’t change some things
I’d like to be thinner
To have better skin
To feel comfortable in a swimsuit
But until I can make those changes I’m ok with what I have
So when I look into the mirror and don't like the image I see
I just take off my glasses
And lean closer so I can see through the blur my vision becomes without them
Because when I’m that close to the mirror all I can see is my eyes
The windows to my soul
And I like what I see there
I wrote this poem for a project when I was in college about 6 years ago. It isn't perfect and I don't know that anyone will even care to read it but its one of my favorites of all the ones I've written and for whatever reason I felt like sharing just now.
Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you.
Admittedly most of my f-list actually know me pretty well in real life but still...I thought it might be interesting to see what kinds of stuff I got asked...if anybody even asks anything at all.
So, the county fair is next week and since my mom finally quit harassing me about scrapbooking I decided to go ahead and do a few pages. Yeah I know I'm strange...my automatic reaction to someone telling me I HAVE to do something is to not do it on principal...it may not make a lot of sense but there you go. Anyway I've been considering doing a poetry book scrapbook with all my poems in it, I mean I have like 60 and they are all just sitting on my harddrive gathering digital-dust or whatever. So yeah I did three pages total...one single page and then a two page spread...the one page one was a poem I wrote back in highschool for my best friend...it actually doesn't totally suck, unlike some of the other stuff. The other spread is a poem about me...My mom loves it but I've never really been sure about it. THey both came out ok but I nearly had a slight freak out after I turned them in for judging cause it suddenly occured to me that Oh MY GOD people were going to read them. I'm still trying to remind myself not to freak out. I'm a little neurotic about my poetry in case you couldn't tell, I almost had to leave the room when a friend read a few of them at a poetry reading at my college. I'll know either tomorrow night or at least by Saturday how I did.
I also entered some pictures again...I probably won't win anything there either...I never do. But I like doing it so I keep trying anyway.
And last but not least my mom talked to my grandma tonight after we got home from going to see Harry Potter and grandma said that we need to have the whole house and yard completely clean and done and everything so somebody can come through and do a property value assessment or whatever. I'm not real clear on the details but basically they're doing it now because of something to do with property value and the taxes we'll have to pay on it when grandma passes away, hopefully wayyyy down the road but I guess you never know. Anyway that means that I have to completely top to bottom clean my room, which is as per usual a slight disaster area...only a little one though. We've gotta clean the carpets and everything. So I think I'm gonna spend my weekend moving everything in my room out cleaning it and then putting it back. And I've got A LOT of stuff. Books and movies and magazines and clothes and just y'know STUFF. my desk looks like something exploded on it. My allergies are already freaking out in protest. The last time we seriously cleaned my room I spent the next week popping allergy medicine so I could breathe through my nose.
In other news of the entertainment variety...Leverage's second season started tonight. Pretty cool. Not my favorite episode but still it was interesting. I can't wait to see how things progress this season. The end made me snicker. Parker and Hardison as a nun and a priest was a little bit giggleworthy.
Also while I was watching Leverage I saw the most bizzare commercial ever...well ok maybe not ever but still...really really not right. ChiaObama.
Yeah...you read that right a little terracotta bust of the president that can grow freaky plant hair...it's meant "to comemmorate the inauguration". DEEPLY TACKY...and more than a little bit creepy.
I mean I totally get that its a big deal...but seriuosly. Couldn't we have stopped at the tacky comemmorative plates? Was the creepy little chiabust really necessary?
Anyway in other news of my geekiness I went shopping with mom today and bought the book "In The Hunt" which is a collection of essays on Supernatural. One of them was written by the ever fabulous pen37. Went to Half Price and raided the clearance section...ended up with some CDs and a couple of books to add to the ever growing To Read pile currently overtakng my bookshelf...its getting a little rediculous really.
Oh and in news unrelated to my geekiness but that I feel the need to share anyway Jess's husband Josh finally got a job...after like 6 or 8 months I think. Which is good cause if he'd continued the routine of sitting on his lazy ass that he had going I was gonna have to get seriously shitty. Also he was getting a pretty serious case of Trucker Butt...which is just something noone wants to have to see. But yeah he starts work in a week at one of the factories here in town which is great except that means they have no babysitter to watch Tay, who isn't in school yet, until its time for her to go to preschool. Guess who got nominated...Uncle Dane, who is currently on layoff from his own job at another factory. Yeah all of you who know my brother picture him babysitting a vaguely hyperactive 4 year old with a tendency to squeal and a fondness for the disney channel. He has to keep an eye on her from the time Jess goes to work and drops Kenzie off at school until its time for her to go to preschool. This includes entertaining, feeding and making sure she is dressed and ready to be picked up my the other lady who said she'd give her a ride. Does anyone else find this more than mildly amusing?
B) Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag the one who tagged you.
Tagging: (sorry. I'm breaking the rules. I tag anyone that's BORED!!)
1. Make a list of 5 things you can see without getting up:
My bookcases (2 of books and 1 of DVDs), the wrought iron cross hanging over my fireplace, 4 different swords, a blue stuffed elephant named monkey, a stuffed monkey named Jack.
2. How do you style your hair?
Longish with layers...usually in a ponytail or a bun so it'll stay out of my way.
3. What are you wearing now?
bright green sleep pants and an olive drab green scoop neck tee over a black pajama tank that says high seas drifter on it...hey its Saturday night and I didn't leave the house today don't judge my lack of fashion.
4. What's your occupation?
I currently, and a little depressingly, unload trucks at a local distribution center for a national women's clothing chain.
5. Do you nap a lot?
God I wish...
6. Who was the last person you hugged?
Probably Taya, my best friend's youngest, this afternoon before they went home.
7. What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
(rolls eyes) should I do alphabetical or chronological? It depends on the day really...I'm a little add with it. Mostly Supernatural, but I've been meandering into the Leverage fandom as well the last week or so. Those are the two main ones at the moment.
8. What was the last thing you ate today?
a deli sliced chicken sandwich with mayo and mustard on whole grain white bread
9. What was the last text message you received?
oh lord I don't know...probably something from Mandos...I think it was a couple of weeks ago when I texted her about the shiny weddingy type headpiece thingy I found for her at an auction.
10. What websites do you always visit when you go online?
LJ, Facebook, Gmail (I'm a compulsive email checker), Delicious...Google...thats about it really
11. What was the last thing you bought?
A gift bag, a couple of cards and a gift card for a baby shower yesterday.
12. What are you listening to right now?
Rockstar by Nickelback...really whatever comes up next on the shuffle on my laptop.
13. What do you think about before you go to bed at night?
Usually either that I really dont' wanna work the next day or whichever story idea or thing I've read is poking me in the brain at the moment.
14. What was the last cd you bought?
A copy of Evanescence's Fallen, which I already had a burned copy of but it was janky and I found it for cheap.
15. What is your favorite weather, and why?
Days when its warm but not too hot and the humidity is tolerable, when the sky is that bright blue you only get in the summer and there are no clouds. I love that kind of weather because you can just be outside and enjoy it, its great park weather for the kids.
16. If you could have any musical talent, what would it be?
I've always wanted to play the piano
17. Where would you like to go on vacation?
honestly probably a road trip with my girls or my mom...I've always thought it'd be fun to just get in the car and go with people you like hanging with and an atlas...and good music mustn't forget the music.
18. Who are your all time favorite actor and actress?
Katharine Hepburn and Cary Grant (though Danny Kaye is a close second there)
19. What's one of your favorite movies?
Oh lord thats a hard one...Arsenic and Old Lace is definitely up there on the list.
I'm looking for as many different versions of the song "Summertime" as I can find. I read a thing somewhere randomly that said it was one of the most covered songs ever, it's originally from the musical "Porgy and Bess" I think. So I was talking with Kayla today while wandering the CD section of Half Price Books and I mentioned it when I found a Janis Joplin CD with the song on it and we got to talking about it. Anyway this is my usual rambling way of getting to the point...which is that I was curious to see how many different versions of the song I could find. I already have I think 3 or 4...Janis, Peggy Lee and Billie Holliday for sure and I think maybe another one though I haven't checked yet to see for sure.
So yeah if any of you who read this happen to have a version of "Summertime" no matter who the artist is or what genre it is I was hoping that you might send it to me. I want to see if I can find enough different versions to make a whole CD. It's a weird goal I know but (shrug) I'm easily amused.
It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE.
When you're finished, post this little paragraph in your LJ and see what your friends come up with.
Ok well I won't try and give everybody a full update on my life cause honestly I'm boring most of the time and most of you who would really care one way or another I talk to with reasonable frequency anyway.
Suffice it to say that nothing major has happened since my last post...well except that Kenzie started school this year which makes me feel epically old. I just started weight watchers with my mom and grandma in an attempt to feel and look less cowlike...we'll see how it goes. I keep going back to the "go back to school for something I actually want to do" debate. I just am not sure what I REALLY want to do. (sigh)
In other random news of me...well kinda. I got really bored and tired of reading fanfic (yes I know amazing isn't it) last week, so I was looking for a book to read. I'd been curious about the Stephanie Meyer Twilight series for a while...the coverart caught my eye in the book store. So anyway they had it on sale at Walmart so I bought the first book "Twilight" just to see if I liked it and what it was all about. It actually didn't completely suck, it was a really quick read, the characters were interesting...mostly (more on that later), and the story while pretty cliche wasn't completely crap and was actually pretty interesting. Now my main issue with the books is that I am something of a language freak. I actually notice things like word choice and the writers style...geeky things like that. And in this case I was pretty solidly underwhelmed. Now I know it was written as a young adult book and all but it just seemed like she was almost talking down to her audience or something...I don't know maybe its just me. Actually to be honest it read like interesting but mediocre fanfiction.
Anyway back to my little issue with the characters...ok those of you who know me, who are probably the only people still reading this anyway if anyone is, know that I am not exactly what anyone would call a hardcore feminist. But really...The main female character in this series practically has damsel stamped across her forehead. Especially in the second book when Ed's Angel complex gets the better of him and he bails, taking his family with him, for her own good. Like she is somehow incapable of making the decision on her own...which also irritated me. Anyway he bails and takes off for wherever and she goes pretty much catatonic for like a week and then basically becomes like a mopey zombie for the next three months. Now I know I probably don't have the right perspective on this particular plot point but really...I just wanted to slap her and tell her to get over herself, quit moping like a toddler, put her big girl panties on and deal with it. Maybe its the fact that I tend to be of the "I don't need a guy to be happy" philosophy, and I"m generally pretty independant, that makes that kind of behavior grate on me. Either way over the course of the books I found myself not really being a fan of Ed and Bella the way other people seem to be...though I actually liked Bella better in the 4th book...probably because she was less dameslly (is that even a word?).
Now don't get me wrong I liked the book and proceeded to go out and get and read the other three books in the series over the course of the next week, all of which I truly enjoyed, but really I don't get the Harry Potter-esque ferver of the fans in this case. Its a good story some interesting characters but (shrug) honestly I've read better written fanfics. Maybe I'm just too picky or something (shrug).
Also her vampires are SPARKLY what the Hell is that? Being fabulously hot and all that I totally get cause yeah vampires...but SPARKLY? (twitch) I finally had to just choose to overlook that little plot point...it just seems wrong somehow.
Ok sorry for the random book review or whatever that just was I guess I had more to say there than I thought (shrug). Alright now that I've probably bored you all into comas...either that or you stopped reading after the first paragraph or so...I'm gonna get off of here and go watch my brand shiny new Supernatural Season 3 DVDs, and oogle the pretty boys while mourning once again the strike shortened season...only 16 episodes (pouts). Season 4 starts next week though so yay for that.